Interview & Boredom

ALRIGHTS first off the list, the university interview.

It has ended and I am fully prepared to enter the workforce LOL. I am too lazy to type it out friends, I'll tell you guys when we meet. In a word: somuchdrama (I know it's technically not a word.)

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NOW now justifying my 1159 post (2 post back). Whoa. I am not that terrible of person. I may get bored, but that doesn't mean I not interested anymore in you as a person. Bored as in the same routine everyday. From waking up to going out or work to eating to sleeping and that's it. Like a life with no hypes. I was like that in secondary and even though I don't dislike it, I don't like it either.

If we meet on a daily basis doing different stuff, from kbox to cafe-hopping or museum-hopping or visiting iconic Singapore areas, I am 100% down for it. There will be days where we can movie marathon, chill and slack at home or even lepak down under HDB yes. LIKE IT'S FINE AS LONG as you are fine.

I realised I am a person who's mood depends a lot on the other party. Like if you're having fun, even if I sound bored or uninterested, I would be internally glad that you are still upbeat and positive. If you're tired, I'll be tired x2 too LOL.

Friends I'm sorry for being high maintenance. Here's a little appreciation post for always bearing with me and my sarcasm, mood swings, angst, fakeness, hype, impromptu-ness, and I'm not sure what other flaws I have but hey, glad you're sticking around. Let's await those life moments that has yet to come, and hopefully it'll be something we can look back and laugh about in the future. (CLICHE BUT TRUE)

OF COURSE, both sad and happy memories. It will not easy but you made it thus far SO. THANKS FRIENDS. From cousins to loyal sec to poly bae to joke interns gosh. May these people live on forever in my life.

PEACEOUT BYEE.

Anger

Starting this on a new day - but in actual fact it's only 10 minuets passed the last post LOL.

Alright topic for today: Anger

No I don't get angry easily at all. But you can argue that 'People who always justify at the start on what they are not are usually what they are.' So eh, point made. Maybe I am angst always.

True. I get annoyance time to time but anger? Lesser than three times a year for the past of my life. Really it's hard to get me angry and again, for those that is confuse with 'annoyed' and 'anger' I'll kindly define the difference.

"Anger is an Emotion. There are only five of them for humans.

Annoyance and irratation are emotional states. Annoyance and irritation are one of many, many states of the emotion Anger."

So in other term, or my terms, anger is WILD FIRE while annoyance is FIRE on match sticks - small irritation basically.

NOW ANGER. 

I found out I get so easily triggered on anger this year.

It's been more than three times and I'm not sure whether it's the people or me. Pretty sure when you get older, you'll be more defined on what makes you angry and what's not. Well here's mine.

First ever full-blown-rage incident: 21st Birthday Planning

It starts one fine Sunday with the usual family group, aka cousins gathering. Now I have a cousin that is turning 21 as well in July, while mine is in October. We started the topic as I told them I'm planning a chalet for my 21st, which is a typical norm for my age group, so the chalet will be in October. 

NOW cousin JD asked P (who is turning 21) about his birthday plans as well, to which he responded 'Erm not a chalet cause.. I don't want the entire family to go to chalet twice a year." 

HOLD IT.

RIGHT.

THERE.

What da fuck hell are you talking about? 

Since when did you convert your religion to a 'saint' that you cared about the entire family's well-being? AND SINCE WHEN WAS THERE A LAW SAYING YOU CAN'T GO TO CHALET TWICE A FREAKING YEAR?

That was a full blown wtf moment that I haven't felt in a long time because honestly, all I see and hear are words full of FAKE-R.

Now this is only the start. Because of great-oh-saintly P, JD remarked "Why not celebrate it with Pearlina?" to which he responded "I don't mind!" in a holy voice that only angels can hear. Unfortunately a demon like me translate it to "fuck you and your limelight"

(For the next part if you are a great-oh-saintly person like P you'll probably curse how inhumane I am so be warned.)

CELEBRATE?
YOUR JULY
IN YOUR COUSIN'S ACTUAL 21ST OCTOBER?
4 MONTHS IS CLOSE ENOUGH TO CELEBRATE TOGETHER?

HOLD IT.

RIGHT THERE.
AGAIN.

For the past 21 years of our life and history since when did we celebrate our birthdays together? Even if it's 4 months close BUT BRUH IN FACTS AND LIFE MATTER, IT IS NOT CLOSE AT ALL. I am sure some can't do math lemme do it for you: 4months/12months is 1/3 of a year.

So you're saying our birthdays are 1/3 close enough to celebrate it together. Omo sounds like a grand idea. At this rate I need to celebrate my birthday with people who's birthday falls all the way till January cause of the 1/3 rule. Petition to make this an official rule in the bible so if people don't abide to it, it's a sin.

NOW being rational, I would understand if it's a week or in the same month but tell me the linkage between July and October. LOOK ME straight in the eye and tell me it's reasonable celebrating it together.

Adding on to the next point, really touch your heart, TOUCH IT. AND SAY OUT LOUD "Turning 21 don't deserve such a big hooha. Obviously my only girl cousin turning 21 don't mind sharing her chalet with me."

Erm sorry.
I mind.
Precisely because it's 21st.

In fact if it's 22, go right ahead on the celebration together. Oh. But wait. You only want this year cause 21st no biggie.

So if my friends come to the party and asked why I am doing it together with my cousin, I have the full authorities to say "Cause I am a bitch who wants my 21st in October that my poor cousin have no choice but to celebrate his July with me. I mean my family can only attend chalet once a year. It's sacred and holy."

BITCH PLEASE. 4 MONTHS AND 21ST? I AINT CELEBRATING EVEN IF YOU ARE MY BROTHER.

NOW. Back to the part where he ended with "I don't mind". In honest fact, I wasn't angry at him for that part. It is the taunting and questions after FROM cousin JD and JN.

Of course after he said idm I gave an extremely sarcastic 'sure' to which both -wise cousins- kept prying 'whywhywhy' THROUGHOUT. THE. ENTIRE. FCUKING. DAY.

It was annoyance at the start, the taunting turns to anger and rage as whenever I explained the 4 months diff and the 21st, they would retaliate with 'I still don't see why" GIVING OFF the look and of course I know the exact answer they want to hear from me.

"I don't like P."

You can say it's a biased judgement but these are facts.
EVEN if I like, worship and adore you, with your birthday in 21st July celebrating in my 21st October, I would still go wtf you talking about? It's just fake ignorance and transparent.

I was at lost on rage because JD and JN are what I called wise. So I ended up in both rage and disappointment from the fact that they -wise men- are willing to ignore these facts just so they can force me to say 'I don't like P'.

LIKE they are no longer interested in reasons. I KNOW what you want me to say but I'm not saying it cause that's NOT the truth.

It's like forcing someone to say 'I hate sprite' when they in actual facts can't drink it cause of citric acid, but hey you just want to hear that phrase to the point where you poured sprite all over the person saying "Now, do you hate sprite because it's spilled all over you?"

NO. I don't like P, but the reason I am not celebrating my 21st with him is due to the fact that it's 4 months apart and it's A 21ST.

ITS. FACTS. It was never about whether I like or dislike someone. I am not an irrational person. They say if you forbid something from happening, you gotta have reasons why. Here are mine and if you still want to based it on because I dislike P, then balls to you. I'll give you the rights to call me a bitch.


Bye to my admiration and faith to me cousins.

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I would start on the second incident. But I'm tired now so the second story shall wait.

1159 Artbox

Went to artbox today and my goal is to write this post before the clock strikes 12 - which meant a new day 23 April. Current time 11.48pm. CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

HERE GOES.

Off with jy to artbox (why am I repeating this again?) TO GET ANOTHER HENNA. I can't my love for hennas is true and real. 

Yes I said another cause yesterday, kel and I went to artbox (YES 2 days in a row) to feel the mainstream aura that everyone is posting on instagram. To be honest, even though the media claimed how crowded and packed it was, it was not that bad? What do you expect from an event that only opens from Friday to Sunday? Add on, for only 2 weeks? That's like only 6 days for the how many people in Singapore?

Anyway back to the henna, so now I got one on each hand WOO. The most unjustified of them all is that the henna I got today, for $10, is much bigger and detailed compared to the one I did yesterday for $12? LIKE whoa can I turn back time and do the one today on both hands. I don't mind if it's the same design.

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I've always wondered where I'll end up in life cause I get bored so easily? If I do the same, or roughly the same, stuff I am doing on a constant basis, I realised I'll end it off by totally terminating my feelings for it. Let's take phone games for example. If I play a game, I get so into it that I will go deep deep down into - searching hacks/points to basically level myself up. E.G. Bakery Story and Line Play. GOsh memeories.

And eventually it got to the point where I was in an extremely high level, but there's just no point anymore? So I gave it up. 

The same thing goes for people.

Of course if we meet twice or thrice every week it ain't that bad. But it gets me thinking, what if I'm married? Can I ensure myself that I won't get bored of my partner seeing him every day? That I won't go "god I'm bored of you already" because it scares me honestly how far my patience will go. 

Whatever it is, I fear it will NOT COME TRUE. Or in the worst case scenario, I won't get married LOL.

**Wait the way I phrase it here sounds MISLEADING - refer to this post.

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That should be about it. NOT BAD FOR A 12 MINUTES RANT.

1159 SIGNING OUT

Another Korea trip?

Got reminded again to update this space but hey it's been some time.

UPDATE ON LIFE.
There's another possibility that I might go to Korea again! This time with the intern gang. And even though I said it's a possibility, it's pretty much confirmed with the deciding factor on the current news regarding NorthKorea and the US yadayadaya. I know this is serious news but I can't help myself cause it doesn't involve me directly (?). Again I wonder, where does my humanity lies.

"I won't do it if I don't have to and if I have to, I'll do it fast." This phrase has aways been in the back of my mind.

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FINISHED THE SERIES '13 Reasons Why' in two days.
For an honest and true feedback, I get why it's hyped and popular, but it's not the best series of American drama I've watched. 7/10? If you are the type that can relate to it maybe it'll be higher. Afterall it's a drama that revolves around a girl with depression and the factors leading up to it.

Unfortunately sobs series aren't my forte. I still prefer romantic mystery genre. I know you can argue this series is somewhat one BUT NO. THE GIRL DIED. SO A ROMANCE IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN WITH CLAY.

Still it's a series worth watching I Guess? There's just too many plot holes I can't avoid seeing as someone who is not-that-into-the-acting-but-the-storyline kind of person. I would start a list on the plotholes but it's 1.26am now and sleep is catching up.

I'll update rue list once I have the feel and time.

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WENT out with the interns today to discussed on the Korea trip and omo this should be written at the top but I forgot so here it is! Finding places with proper wifi in town is hard. Moving on. Bowling for the night activity and miracously, no drinking involved. There's always drinks around smoker and it's hilarious seeing people defy it BUT HEY defy successful. A lot due to time constraint LOL.

Anyhow ending this off with a NO YOU DONT GET AN ENDING OFF MESSAGE.
BYE.