My fate with events and people

When I was young (INSERT FLASHBACK DANGDANG) I've been told by a shifu that my life will always have gui rens, as my yuan (fate) with people is good. In short, I have a smooth course with people at the right time and place. Thus, my timeline of people and events will always align.

So I thought, alrighty then let's put this make-believe to the test.

In my early secondary, my math and science was failing pretty badly that my mum was considering on a tutor. When out of the blue my cousin introduced his owns, that there I am having a tutor that helped me score B3 for eMath and A2 for Physics from failing.

During both my poly and university course selection, there is always a close senior that tells me about their own courses that I thought okay and thus, my education life is sealed. I would deem it as a fate-route cause I had no idea what I wanted to study so this got me some where. I never pondered to the extent of stressing out what to do in life.

When my friends can't make it to a child-mentoring session and I was supposed to be alone, it was cancelled. So was a community run due to rain, cca session and even lessons in school.

I wanted to travel to Korea, and 2 groups of friends at the same time are available to go that I WENT TWICE. Best decision ever made.

Last year I prayed for a bf, and I got a legit one this year (WTS LOL)

And today, sf and I were planning to meet tomorrow to fix her eyelash extensions, but it's cancelled as she has last minute Japan stuffs to settle. Coincidentally my fam is going JB for a day trip and I CAN GO WEEEE. This was planned since last week but I forgot, and it's wrong to cancel the meeting I agreed upon BUT HEY LOOK THE OTHER PARTY CANCELLED IT FOR ME.

You can say it's pure luck but I would deem it as fate.

Maybe not 100% of the time but more times enough to think maybe I really am bestowed upon this fortune regarding people and events. If so, I thank whoever that created or noticed such superstition with the stars and moon.

TILL THE NEXT UPDATE.

Till the next term

It's my 2-week term break now which means another update!

Not. I have nothing to do while waiting for my maple character to finish leeching off the party for exp (YES I HAVE TO CAUSE ILL DIE IF I ALLOW IT TO AUTOPLAY), thus here I am to this non-existence world to update my life!

SF and I are planning to do eyebrow embroidery/eyelash extension next week, just the eyebrows for me, so hopefully I got stuffs planned out before that - else I'll be looking like a cartoon character with thick brows after the session, Crayon Shinchan much.

Going to vivo tomorrow to view the famous TsumTsum exhibition and Marvel sand sculptures if fate allows so weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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I feel like I've reached this point in life where I'll just accept whatever that happens. Although to be fair I've always lived my life with this motto but this is like an all-time high. If the world were to end tomorrow, I'll just accept the fact and continue, while watching the whole world break down and wonder why.

It's not something that can be controlled and if it did, the only reasons I can find people being sad if the world ends tomorrow, is that whatever they've been building for the future is gone. Or that they have stuffs that want to accomplish but are unable to do so. If that's the case, do I have none of both?

Does it mean I haven't been anticipating my future and that I have already completed what I wanted to do?

Yes.

I won't say I'm not anticipating my future, more like I don't think that far, so I have nothing planned #SMARTMENOT.

But if you're sad over stuffs that you want to complete but never did, it means you've been given the opportunity to ay? To fix whatever that needs fixing, and you can do it in the now, in present time, but you didn't.

So why are you sad over the fact that you could have done it, when you should have at that very point in time? It makes no sense. This meant guilt, remorse and regrets. And you're sad because you didn't get the chance to correct these ominous burden in your heart before the world ends tomorrow when you can do it today.

THIS ARE SHIT EXCUSES. Sure it's hard to face them, "Oh you won't know cause it's not your way of dealing with it". No. Disappointingly, news flash, it doesn't work this way NO MATTER HOW CAREFREE ONE IS. When dealing with regrets I deal with it immediately, cause I hate the feeling of remorse and sleeping knowing the fact that I'm going to deal with it again tomorrow.

Avoiding it and prolonging it doesn't solve the root cause AT ALL. Isn't tackling it the easiest? You can take your time hey no one is forcing you but taking too long, I would deemed it as 'cowardly'.

//I'm lazyyyy, was playing Maple while writing this so I'm distracted, hopefully I can continue this in the future. More or less what I'm trying to say is no one should feel like they have something undone when the world ends tomorrow, asides from wanting to say goodbye one last time. I think that's pretty reasonable.

Till the next update BYE.