WHAT I haven't updated in 4 months where was I? Enjoying life man.
Intern has ended (from where I last left) and omegosh time passed so damn fast? I didn't even celebrate 2017, so here it is in February. HAPPY 2017!
Life is great. THIS is like the best period so far - but then it has always been more or less this way.
After internship ended, the intern gang still meets 2 to 3 times a week - fair number so not much has changed. A FACT that changed though is that I have to apply for university now and I have absolutely no idea what to major in.
In the end, life don't always work out as we planned it few years ago. I remembered my goals when I first started poly: Earn lots of money in an office job. A practical idea. But now I'm like meh I don't think I can do 8 hours a day sitting in the office, it's not my thing.
As a female, I'm taking it slow. Pursue interest - not that I have one in the first place since florist is a temporary infatuation. Hang out with friends - have fun basically.
I really have nothing planned for the future and there's always this lingering thought at the back of my head that goes 'god you're gonna kill yourself this way'. Everyone is signing up for university, some got jobs in companies and some had their interest sort out. But I have no idea? I'll sign up a course in uni but it'll be just for the sake of continuing this path I crafted in poly. It scares me.
It scares me cause what if I ended up in a job that is of no relation to my course of studies in the university? This meant wasting 4 years of my life and money in education that I won't pursue upon graduation. I don't like IT even though I'm good at it. I don't like business even if I do it for the pay (since money is never a long term motivation). But damn that is practically my course.
Too much to ponder so honestly, I'll just be a full time florist if I don't get in a university omo.
Flowers everyday I likey.
Now that I'm entering the early 20s, that's like 1/5 of me life if I lived till 100, so much good memories has happened. What if I'm enjoying too much now and when things get rough, it gets real tough that I won't be able to handle it noooo.
REALLY GUYS The most important thing in life is to just be happy - CLICHE SHIT BUT IT'S TRUE. Okay you don't have to be happy everyday since there are bad days occasionally. The point is: Do what you enjoy, live life to the fullest according to you (don't let anyone tell you otherwise) and stress less on the long-term future.
That is the formula in living a laid-back carefree life.
But of course not everyone thinks the same so it's fine. I'M OLD LA I WAS 19 JUST 2 YEARS AGO HOW TIME FLIES PLEASE DON'T TAKE AWAY THIS TIME.
I read somewhere saying that the late 10s and early 20s will be the best part of your life. True bruh true.
SIGNING OUT THE UPDATE ON LIFE. Here's a dedication to Kellin for the reminder to update this blog THXKBYE.