Officially a Year 2 Student???

Wow wow this place is rusty, mainly due to my school holidays being so preoccupied with da boi. Regardlesss, here's a quick update: School started.

WHAT?

That's right. Where has the 2 months gone to? Playing, sleeping, eating and partying like no tomorrow (in my dreams) like WHAAAAAAAT?

THERE GOES MY HOLIDAY AND NOW I'M A YEAR 2 UNI STUDENT??? Does this officially mean I have 3 more years to go? This feel surreal. I've already forgotten the feeling of studying that the first day of school is like me returning home - the familiar smell of hallways and classroom, the cleaners minding their own business and me face-booking during lesson.

Speaking of Facebook, there seem to be a huge saga revolving around it now that I don't understand? So what if he loses a few billions, he is still a billionaire. But ah wells, politics is never my forte but, I love watching drama, esp since it doesn't involve me. Does it make sense?

Now back to rants. Hm I'm currently addicted to Maple M, it's fun. I have a new chair cushion that is so bulky that I removed it and now it's me bag holder. Hm and I went to the Singapore Garden Festival yesterday at Gardens by the Bay with the gals in the early afternoon, Istana with babe in the late afternoon, and dinner with the fam in the evening.

Ahhhh will I ever miss such simple moments that is deemed not really during the moment it happened.

I will.

May school be smooth, happy and fulfilling. And may life be forever this kind to the universe I owned. HAPPY YEAR 2 AHEAD.

How does a brain work?

It's amazing to know that what I don't know a few days ago, is everything I know now because of a sense of urgency. GET IT GET IT?

LIKE the finals is tomorrow, and I've been trying to understand this terminology since last week but I can never seem to grasp the entire picture of it - UNTIL NOW. How does my brain automatically absorb such information only when the time is due for it to remember. WHY DOESN'T IT WORK LAST WEEK?

Am I not trying to understand it at all cause I'm sure I did? HOW DOES IT WORK?

Questions after questions but I'm glad I understand it now.

BYE.

People Change

I wonder at what age do we really define that we've changed?

It's unexpected and undecided really, depending on where we are currently standing in life. I have people my age getting married, and then there's people asking for permission to go out late, and then there's me - somewhere in between having a decent amount of freedom of speech, surviving university and living the best times of my life. AND I'M ONLY 22.

The thing is, we can never really define we've changed ourselves, until we realize our people have isn't it? 

The moment when we realized old conversations of the same things no longer brings a spark, or a chuckle, to daily exchanges. The moment when we realized that what we thought is funny, is no longer so when we bring it up to the rest of the world. The moment when you realized that the similar interests the world once had with you, is gone.

That is when you realized, that it's either the world has changed while you stayed, or you did.

No, it's not wrong. It never was as change is inevitable. People change, for the better or worst, that's for you to judge based on your perspective of what's right and wrong. 

And we can't stop it. We don't have to. Our job is to accept that things can no longer go back to the past and move on. And there is no need to as well, change in person is ultimately growth isn't it?

We change with the environment that eventually, it'll changed our thinking and perspective of things that works all around the world. I would deemed it growing.

I know.

I know cause I was enlightened about how big the world is during internship, and I found out that I didn't know that I was behind time, in a sense, although dependent on how you define your set of time. Mine was going with the crowd that I thought I had always followed, but in the end I guess I was too in my comfort circle to realize that I'm not. DO I MAKE SENSE?

Regardless, to move on and grow, you got to embrace the fact that the only thing you can do now, to save whatever you want to save, is to change yourself, or be strong in staying the same while others change.

Cause the world can try to change your mind, but they can't break you if you don't allow it to. Accept it or leave it.

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I guess that's all for now, got distracted halfway with the friend's quiz that is OH SO FUN WEW.

Till the next time~~

Study date

Update update studying in CoffeeBean with Fel today like wow I can't believe in 3 weeks time IM FREE FROM SCHOOOOOL.

For at least 1 and a half month that is.

Kk back to studying.

Wow first stress in uni

QUICK UPDATE ABOUT LIFE

Assignments, assignments and more assignments.

My stress level is either a 0 or 100, there's no in between. One moment I'm confident about the assignment completion and the other with my mind calculating the time I have left and it concluded that there's no time left. I CANNOT.

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Omo while updating this, someone on Carousell asked about the star war cushion PLEASE BUY IT. MY FAM HAVE TOO MANY PILLOW TO FILL THE COUCH that once I reached home, I informed them that 'I'm gonna sell this' and that is not asking, it's informing.

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Okay back to stress. It pushed me to the extent that I wonder if university is the right path. Although, okay to be fair, this thought came to my mind when I was at the peak of my stress which I blamed the coffees since I'm not usually a coffee-intake person, but I drank too much that day. The caffeine + adrenaline + dizzy bus ride + failing a 14% test + hardworking peers add on to so much that day that I wasn't in the right state of mind. IT WAS CHAOS I SWEAR.

Thoughts kept running through my mind, from escaping reality to thinking about life if I quit school to thinking how I could survive 3 more years of this stress, even though it's not all the time.

I'm worried. I don't worry about retaining another year if I failed, I worry about whether schooling is a good investment. Is getting a degree worth it? Can I not survive in the workforce without a degree? What if I wasted 4 years of studying this course, but I end up in some job totally unrelated? WHICH MAKES MY DEGREE USELESS. I DON'T WANT IT TO BE USELESS. This meant wasting money, time and effort for 4 years but it turns out to be useless.

Would life give me a sign? I NEED TO KNOW.

Anyways, this thoughts shall be tucked away in my brain somewhere, where it would re-surface again when stress is ignited - to again remind myself why did I enter university LOL.

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BACK TO THE HAPPY STUFFS IN LIFE.

Collected the star war run race pack today, with the actual run on 5th May. How exciting wew isit I can get a chance to lose weight before gaining it all back while studying? There there nice try convincing yourself there.

This should be the end of ranting for now. Here's to my boi jy for reminding me to update this place.

To end this off, may school life be good to me although generally life is already pretty good to me. LEMME PASS THIS SEM, OR LEMME FAIL LIKE 3 PAPERS AFTER DOING MY BEST TO TELL ME WHERE I SHOULD GO IN LIFE.