Till the next term

It's my 2-week term break now which means another update!

Not. I have nothing to do while waiting for my maple character to finish leeching off the party for exp (YES I HAVE TO CAUSE ILL DIE IF I ALLOW IT TO AUTOPLAY), thus here I am to this non-existence world to update my life!

SF and I are planning to do eyebrow embroidery/eyelash extension next week, just the eyebrows for me, so hopefully I got stuffs planned out before that - else I'll be looking like a cartoon character with thick brows after the session, Crayon Shinchan much.

Going to vivo tomorrow to view the famous TsumTsum exhibition and Marvel sand sculptures if fate allows so weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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I feel like I've reached this point in life where I'll just accept whatever that happens. Although to be fair I've always lived my life with this motto but this is like an all-time high. If the world were to end tomorrow, I'll just accept the fact and continue, while watching the whole world break down and wonder why.

It's not something that can be controlled and if it did, the only reasons I can find people being sad if the world ends tomorrow, is that whatever they've been building for the future is gone. Or that they have stuffs that want to accomplish but are unable to do so. If that's the case, do I have none of both?

Does it mean I haven't been anticipating my future and that I have already completed what I wanted to do?

Yes.

I won't say I'm not anticipating my future, more like I don't think that far, so I have nothing planned #SMARTMENOT.

But if you're sad over stuffs that you want to complete but never did, it means you've been given the opportunity to ay? To fix whatever that needs fixing, and you can do it in the now, in present time, but you didn't.

So why are you sad over the fact that you could have done it, when you should have at that very point in time? It makes no sense. This meant guilt, remorse and regrets. And you're sad because you didn't get the chance to correct these ominous burden in your heart before the world ends tomorrow when you can do it today.

THIS ARE SHIT EXCUSES. Sure it's hard to face them, "Oh you won't know cause it's not your way of dealing with it". No. Disappointingly, news flash, it doesn't work this way NO MATTER HOW CAREFREE ONE IS. When dealing with regrets I deal with it immediately, cause I hate the feeling of remorse and sleeping knowing the fact that I'm going to deal with it again tomorrow.

Avoiding it and prolonging it doesn't solve the root cause AT ALL. Isn't tackling it the easiest? You can take your time hey no one is forcing you but taking too long, I would deemed it as 'cowardly'.

//I'm lazyyyy, was playing Maple while writing this so I'm distracted, hopefully I can continue this in the future. More or less what I'm trying to say is no one should feel like they have something undone when the world ends tomorrow, asides from wanting to say goodbye one last time. I think that's pretty reasonable.

Till the next update BYE.

Officially a Year 2 Student???

Wow wow this place is rusty, mainly due to my school holidays being so preoccupied with da boi. Regardlesss, here's a quick update: School started.

WHAT?

That's right. Where has the 2 months gone to? Playing, sleeping, eating and partying like no tomorrow (in my dreams) like WHAAAAAAAT?

THERE GOES MY HOLIDAY AND NOW I'M A YEAR 2 UNI STUDENT??? Does this officially mean I have 3 more years to go? This feel surreal. I've already forgotten the feeling of studying that the first day of school is like me returning home - the familiar smell of hallways and classroom, the cleaners minding their own business and me face-booking during lesson.

Speaking of Facebook, there seem to be a huge saga revolving around it now that I don't understand? So what if he loses a few billions, he is still a billionaire. But ah wells, politics is never my forte but, I love watching drama, esp since it doesn't involve me. Does it make sense?

Now back to rants. Hm I'm currently addicted to Maple M, it's fun. I have a new chair cushion that is so bulky that I removed it and now it's me bag holder. Hm and I went to the Singapore Garden Festival yesterday at Gardens by the Bay with the gals in the early afternoon, Istana with babe in the late afternoon, and dinner with the fam in the evening.

Ahhhh will I ever miss such simple moments that is deemed not really during the moment it happened.

I will.

May school be smooth, happy and fulfilling. And may life be forever this kind to the universe I owned. HAPPY YEAR 2 AHEAD.

How does a brain work?

It's amazing to know that what I don't know a few days ago, is everything I know now because of a sense of urgency. GET IT GET IT?

LIKE the finals is tomorrow, and I've been trying to understand this terminology since last week but I can never seem to grasp the entire picture of it - UNTIL NOW. How does my brain automatically absorb such information only when the time is due for it to remember. WHY DOESN'T IT WORK LAST WEEK?

Am I not trying to understand it at all cause I'm sure I did? HOW DOES IT WORK?

Questions after questions but I'm glad I understand it now.

BYE.

People Change

I wonder at what age do we really define that we've changed?

It's unexpected and undecided really, depending on where we are currently standing in life. I have people my age getting married, and then there's people asking for permission to go out late, and then there's me - somewhere in between having a decent amount of freedom of speech, surviving university and living the best times of my life. AND I'M ONLY 22.

The thing is, we can never really define we've changed ourselves, until we realize our people have isn't it? 

The moment when we realized old conversations of the same things no longer brings a spark, or a chuckle, to daily exchanges. The moment when we realized that what we thought is funny, is no longer so when we bring it up to the rest of the world. The moment when you realized that the similar interests the world once had with you, is gone.

That is when you realized, that it's either the world has changed while you stayed, or you did.

No, it's not wrong. It never was as change is inevitable. People change, for the better or worst, that's for you to judge based on your perspective of what's right and wrong. 

And we can't stop it. We don't have to. Our job is to accept that things can no longer go back to the past and move on. And there is no need to as well, change in person is ultimately growth isn't it?

We change with the environment that eventually, it'll changed our thinking and perspective of things that works all around the world. I would deemed it growing.

I know.

I know cause I was enlightened about how big the world is during internship, and I found out that I didn't know that I was behind time, in a sense, although dependent on how you define your set of time. Mine was going with the crowd that I thought I had always followed, but in the end I guess I was too in my comfort circle to realize that I'm not. DO I MAKE SENSE?

Regardless, to move on and grow, you got to embrace the fact that the only thing you can do now, to save whatever you want to save, is to change yourself, or be strong in staying the same while others change.

Cause the world can try to change your mind, but they can't break you if you don't allow it to. Accept it or leave it.

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I guess that's all for now, got distracted halfway with the friend's quiz that is OH SO FUN WEW.

Till the next time~~

Study date

Update update studying in CoffeeBean with Fel today like wow I can't believe in 3 weeks time IM FREE FROM SCHOOOOOL.

For at least 1 and a half month that is.

Kk back to studying.